I haven't been blogging for a while now (verrryyy long time, feels like). Since a week already practically feels like an aeon in blogverse. I don't know what amost 2 months is! Too many things can happen! :D
So sorry for not blogging after I said I was back, haha, probably not the best thing to do. But I suppose I wanted to face my real world first before getting back on to blogging. :S
What I eventually did during the past months though, I can't really remember much. I suppose just going about almost fully in the real world. Which was kind of weird.
Thennn afterwards also, little did I know that there is FEAR that comes with trying to blog again after such a long time of not blogging. And so I kind of met the writer's block...
I think what I'm trying to say is that probably we just need to roll with it when he's there. Oh, he'll be back for sure anyway. :D No need to miss him as much. I really don't know. What do you do when you meet the writer's block?
Blogging was constantly on my mind too, I miss the connection, the updates from everything, and the sense of community, I just didn't post anything nor communicate with anyone, which kind of defeated the whole purpose. :S Probably this kind of added up unnecessary pressure I put to myself that made the writer's block stayed a bit longer. The pressure to start blogging again, and blog GOOD things only! Whoa! No!
I'm so sorry, I feel like I'm such a terrible blogger / blogger friend. :S We did missed some internet celebrations for April Fool's Day, Easter, and Cinco de Mayo here, didn't we? :P
So, yes, for now, hellow and yellow! :)
How's life been treating you for the past 2 months?
I really do miss you ... *uhh... kisses... :/
Hope you all well!
P.S. : Also, just saying, ironically, the final 'okay, that's it!' that made me venture out of my little safe nice cocoon of not posting is, -- well, did you know there will be spam comments if your account seems inactive for quite a while? Well, I didn't. Haha, so I suppose thanks a lot to those 2 'adult chat' sites that commented on my blog. :P (Edit: THREE! Really now spam bots?!)
WHOA! I'm back! Hahaha, haven't been the best weeks, I was down with some fever, rashes, and hives, followed by some sore throat and more fever, which practically reduced immensely my waking hours else I would attempt to SCRATCH myself impulsively. Not fun, haha, but now I'm back to blogging! Or basically to computer and internet in general too :S. Hopefully in full swing! :D Also, hopefully you have had better days last few weeks than mine, eep!
Anyway, this post is going to be probably pretty much different than my usual posts. Although, I'm not so sure I have any 'usual post', but yes, anyhow. :P
Lately I have been thinking a lot about this. You know one of those moments when you feel like you have something to handle and instead of the facing it, you feel like running away instead?
Have you ever have those moments?
Well yea, those.
I am that kind of person, mostly. Sadly I have to admit that almost every time I have something I need to take care of in which is generally unpleasant for me, or scary, or unknown, to me, fear creeps in and I need to shackle my own feet to eventually face them.
Most of the times I just run away first.
Oh this can be in many forms. It doesn't have to be physically running away surely. That would be very tiring! Although I might become very fit if I do that. Whoop!
But it can be as simple as avoiding thinking, or of course, this would end up in simple procrastination, such as when I was in school, studying for the tests...? I was one of those kids that would cram the materials like an hour before the test. Yep.
Well, even though, I did, to certain extend pass those assignments and tests in school quite okay-ish, well, it wasn't the best thing that could happen was it?
Avoiding tasks or things which I THINK I will not be able to do superbly isn't solving the problem.
Lately I have been thinking that, instead of running AWAY from it, whatever it is that creates this discomfort or stress for me, I should be running TOWARDS it, THROUGH it instead.
Because as someone once said, well, actually quoting, Paul Varjak from 'Breakfast at Tiffany's', *swoon*, he said, 'Because no matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself'. Did I made you feel like Holy Golightly enough just then? :D
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Running away isn't solving the problem because the happiness, the only solution that we were looking for is at the other end of that whatever we are running from.
So, I've been thinking that only by running THROUGH it, will I ever find the real deal state of peace.
Does that make sense? ... I certainly hope it does.
And I certainly hope that whatever that you are facing right now, or whatever that you are running from right now, even though hopefully there is absolutely none that you need to face and I only wish you all the gentle happiness in this world, but only IF there is any, I certainly hope that you can run THROUGH whatever it is, and reach that happiness that you always deserve. With all the power that can only make you stronger, and all the best lessons that can only make you a better person that then can take only at ease any future variations. :)
So there, I just rambled. I prefer to call it heart to heart talk though. :) Not sure you would enjoy this kind of very wordy opinionated probably irrelevant-to-you post, but, there it was. Ooufff!
Happy Wednesday, may weekend feels like it comes sooner than ever! :))
